John Forrest Tomlinson wrote:

I used Lidocaine on a saddle sore before a race in the mid-1990s. I
just can't live with this sort of secret anymore. I am sorry to all my
teammates, my wife and family, and most of all to the sport I love.

I am trying to cry now. Someone please hug me. Someone?

Tugboat would give you a hug if he was still around.